It's not just the emotions you experience while in it... angst that is as random and intentional as standing in a global rainstorm you feel is exclusively directed at your face.
The real issue is that you're close enough to what you let go of that you're constantly tempted to swing back in that direction... because you're not feeling full released into what's in front of you to the point where not living backward makes sense.
If that makes sense.
And I imagine it does.
"I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 3:14)